As I ponder the ideas of peeking behind the clouds, exploring holographic universes, staying in the present moment, I playfully explored this thought. What if a little cell in our body had an epiphany experience and the world as this cell had known it, dramatically changed as the millions of other surrounding cells come into view? In awe and a bit of panic the cell cries out, “Who am I and where am I?” A thunderous voice says, “You are one millionth of a gall bladder.” The cell murmurs, “Finally, everything makes sense!”
Every thought is a point of view, even those hidden behind the clouds. We can see ourselves as a little dot or part of the whole of whatever universe we think we inhabit. Points of view are just that, filtering our encoded information into a thought or action. We place judgments on different emotions, such as happy, sad, angry, depressed, jubilant, and identify these as “good” and “bad”. Unraveling all this can be very complicated, creating more confusion by trying to capture and hang on to the good feelings and experiences, only to have it shift to a negative experience. How unreliable is that! We think we’ve failed yet once again to “get it”.
The very first lessons in the Course (acim.org) address this. “These thoughts do not mean anything. Begin by noting the thoughts that cross your mind.” “You will find, if you train yourself to look at your thoughts, that they represent such a mixture that, in a sense, none of them can be called “good” or “bad.” None of them represents your real thoughts, which are being covered up by them.” I suggest this can be treated simply by lifting the window blinds to let in light.
Another lesson in the Course is titled: “I feel the Love of God within me now. There is a light in the world you cannot perceive.” “Yet you have eyes to see it. It is there for you to look upon. It was not placed in you to be kept hidden from your sight. To feel the love of God within you is to see the world anew, shining in innocence….”
In listening to Ulf speak of love with such simplicity and innocence, it is very evident he allowed the light to shine through his thoughts. He also had the strong urge to share that energy he called love or God with others, in a very gentle manner. This does not mean he avoided negative thoughts. They just did not define him. In saying this, I am expressing a point of view that there is something called love or awareness of an expanded experience underneath our thought stream. As I allow myself to experience thoughts without judgment, and just sit in awareness of what is in the moment, it does bring a sense of peace to me. Nothing dramatic. As the shadow thoughts slowly cease to attract our attention, we can then observe the light reflected in our life.
As I listened, yet once again, to the recorded tapes of Ulf speaking, one I included in the post, Love Speaks, I’m reminded of what an incredible journey we experienced together. Practicing being with whatever is, gave me strength and insight. Love brought the lightness of being.
There was a full moon when Ulf passed. On the third moon anniversary, I took photos, that to my surprise included a heart shaped moon. One of many “surprises”. So on this, the sixth moon, I took photos as the moon drifted behind a thin layer of clouds. It so spoke to my last post, Behind the Clouds, where we find the light. This lovely light is always shining behind our thin layers of thoughts.
